Can you Hear me Now?

I've had my eyes opened to an abundance of revelation during the month of October. One thing for sure is that I've accepted the call on my life to ministry. One of the reasons I've downplayed it and gave it other names was because of the rejection from the church. It did not matter if I was in a mega church or small church I was never accepted. However I found out this week that was by God's design, so I would continue to run after Him instead of man.

He is so loving that He will "hide you until the one who can afford you" comes through the door. I realize that statement has a two-fold meaning for my life but for now it speaks to my mentor. God hid me and allowed me not to be accepted until I was ready for spiritual mentorship. He needed me to be processed and broken a little deeper. Why? So when He released me to be trained my hope and focus stayed in Him. When the student is ready the teacher will appear....I know this for sure.

One of the things that have happened in the body of Christ is that we've begun to worship the gift instead of the giver of the gift. Which is why I'm so thankful that my gift is being released through a stripping of everything that does not line up with His will. The amazing thing about this is that most of us in the body won't stay the course of being processed long enough to experience what the end will be. We jump ship in the middle of the process because we don't want to go through anything...no pain, no revelation. Destiny costs and it's not free, if you haven't been through anything, died to yourself, been broken, rejected, slandered, thrown out with the dishwater- you can't tell me "nothing".

Everyone has an opinion about what is going on in and with our churches right now - I have none. Yet, my eyes are wide-open and I have not drunk the Kool-aid. What I am doing is purifying my own heart to make sure my life is lined up with His will. I chose to run after God, repent for all of my own sins as I cry out for the church. (We are the church and not the building)

I'm so blessed that no man told me what the call on my life was; yet it was revealed through studying and mediating on His word. The full vision for my magazine is clearer and I have no fear that every resource needed to bring it to fruition will appear. It no longer matters to me what others tell me about print being dead and the magazine industry not being what it used to be. When you have a God idea and the vision is downloaded through His mind, naysayers have no place in your ear. As long as it was my idea it was confusing words on paper...but now it's in my gut.

When I was younger I use to ask God why He gave the Jackson family all of the talent. I didn't think I had any talent because it was not blatantly obvious to me. However, I would not trade my life for any member of the Jackson family on any level. Look at what it cost to be who man told Michael Jackson he was. He died never fully knowing who he really was as he continued until death trying to perfect an image from someone else mirror.

I heard the call and I answered, Yes Lord. What about you?

What you speak is what you Get

For the past two weeks all of my lessons and learning’s have been around what I speak out of my mouth. I even learned that wrong words can put your blessings and Destiny on hold. OMG! When I sat to ponder over why things have not advanced in certain areas of my life I could trace them directly back to my words.

One of my sisters was whining the other day about her air conditioning being out. The technician finally showed up to look at it but needed to order a part before he could fix it. She told him, “You know I'm going to be dead over here before the part gets here." He said, "Yeah, you'll probably be dead, as hot as it is in here." Can you see the death she spoke out of her own mouth over the situation?

Tonight, my spiritual mentor asked me if I believed I could have what God's word says I can have. My reply was Yes, even though I don't always operate as though I do. My new posture is to be slow to speak and quick to listen, and for a talker (I like to think communicator) it is a work in progress. Everyday I have to take back erroneous words that have slipped off of my lips. When I think about my magazine and how it will speak into the hearts of women the need to Love words becomes more important than ever.

Even when we are disciplining our children we have to be careful that in our anger we are not releasing death over their lives but life. One of my favorite verses in the bible is when the Lord tells Jeremiah, "Behold, I have put my words in your mouth. (Jer.11:9) I'm encouraged that each day I can ask Him to do the same for me.

As a child I was expected to answer any question quick, fast and in a hurry. Out of fear, I was never able to think about the words that were coming out of my mouth. This resulted in me telling you whatever was on my mind as an adult. No thought of being politically correct, compassionate, or justified. If you didn't want the truth, you would most definitely not want to ask me. But as believers we are expected to speak in love even when giving correction.

So, if you're reading this and you know you've put some really wrong words into the atmosphere then go back and pull them down. It's really scary to think that we will be judged by Every word that comes out of our mouth.

That alone gives me new perspective to being slow to speak. I promise I'm working on allowing you to finish your sentence, not ask you what part of this don't you understand, ask you if you're on crack, or say….that's interesting…. when I think what you've said is crazy, or give you my long, Okayyy.

You can have what you say!

Faith isn't Faith until it's Tested

In the past two weeks my faith has been tested on so many levels. Sometimes life come and hits you right in the gut and then moves up to your heart. It’s at that very moment when everything you say you believe out of your mouth becomes a reality or you can chose to let fear paralyze you.

I’m so thankful to know such mighty women prayer warriors who will shut everything down to go to war with and for me. Listening to their prayers, the way they command and take authority over a thing has taken my faith to new levels. The most profound statement I’ve heard during this time is." God is not moved by our tears but by our faith." Amen church!

If your faith is never tested you won’t ever know if what you’ve based your belief system on is true. If you don’t step into the water you will never know if the Red Sea will be parted. If you don’t cast your net into the water you will never know if there is treasure to be caught up in your net. We know that faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen. And the word says, “ that without faith it is impossible to please God.”

Faith is not asking for what God has already promised. Faith believes in the promises of God. Only little faith hides when it is tested. Big faith stands against the testing. Each time a trail of faith comes our way, we should understand that it is not we who are being proven but the Lord. Only after your faith has been tested and proven will you be able to help and benefit others. In the process, God’s heart will be satisfied, and His name will be glorified.

The real test of faith is found among those who believe God long before the victory is manifested. Tonight, I rest in complete victory.