You Want Me to Do What?

Day 285:"Almost every man wastes part of his life in attempts to display qualities which he does not possess, and to gain applause which he cannot keep." ~Samuel Johnson, The Rambler, 1750. If you are a frequent reader of my blog you now I love to start my post off with a thought provoking quote.

I have been not been feeling my best since Friday when the bug that has my girls down decided it wanted to be my friend. I realize getting up a couple of times a night with my granddaughter had weakened my ability to fight this thing. If the truth be told, I need some rest like Big time but have to keep pushing.

Today, we had recital for our dance ministry and my little mentee stood in awe of all the girls from age 3-25 as they performed. I could tell she was so wishing she could be a part of something like it. One of my friend's replied at the recital that you could see in her face that she does not get to be a child. Several times today, she has told me that I need to do what I need to do to get the child with me.

My sister called from Chicago and stated, while she was in church she saw the child living with me. In fact. she believes I am taking on the role of my great-grandmother who took me and raised me when not one wanted me.

All I have to say is hold up wait a minute. First off, I don't believe for one minute that her mother will allow her to come and live with me. Second, my child is almost 21 years old and wants to move out on her own. So, why would I want to start over raising a child? I hear you saying, "It is not about you." Well, that would come as no surprise as nothing ever is about me from where I sit. So, what is up with all of this good intention of folks telling me to try to take on this massive responsibility?

Is my assignment really more than shedding light on the situation so counseling and healing can come into her home? I don't have a clue and I don't sense God telling me to do anything at the moment. But, what I will do is be obedient to the urging of Holy Spirit. I will do whatever I hear the Lord telling me to do. And if by chance it works out that she comes back to me, then I know it's what I am destined to do.

Lord, Do You!