I've been at a Crossroads

Day 197-172: I've not blogged in 25 days and for those of you who have come to appreciate my voice I humbly apologize. On the way to helping everyone else with their lives and achieving their goals I became invisible. On last Friday, I saw Julia Roberts latest movie, "Eat, Pray, Love. In the movie her character would lose herself and become invisible whenever she fell in love. About three days prior to seeing the movie it was so clear that I was off course and had somehow become invisible to myself.

So how could this happen? It happens in your quest to always put others feelings and needs before your own. It happens when you are not sure of who you are and what it is you absolutely want out of life. It happens because you don't believe deep down inside that you deserve the best. Even though I can be heard saying time and time again, "people can only do what you allow them to do" I still allow them to do. So what is really up with that?

I think that we as women have been taught if we think about ourselves then we're selfish and only thinking of Me, Me, Me. But, what I've come to learn over the past several months of being tossed to and fro, is that I can't live out my destiny if I don't ever think about me. Thinking about me and following the path that God has destined for my life versus making it up as others see fit has very different endings and implications.

Today, it is clearer than ever the path I want to take and I'm moving down it as though my life depended on it-because it does. I'm taking all the limitations that I've set over myself off, off, off. I'm officially releasing me from other peoples dreams and I'm clipping my own wings.

"I owe no man except to love him."