Sometimes God Hides You

Day 165: Back in 2001, my pastor preached a sermon and this title was the nugget that I got from it. It has stayed in my head on and off for the last nine years. At different times in my life when I found myself challenged or when things were especially good I would remember this nugget. All the time the question in my head would be, “ What does that mean for me?”

For some reason it was back in my head again all night long. I should probably set the stage for the context of the statement. The message that was ministered back then dealt with a lot of things but the one that grabbed me was about men and women “shacking together.” I wasn’t even in a relationship so it was strange to me that this would so pierce my spirit.

When you take the statement as a whole it has many different meanings, which is why I feel so compelled to share it with all of you. “Sometimes God hides you until the one who can afford you comes through the door...whole statement. For me it has meant being taken out of prime time as I am being prepared for Destiny. It’s meant going from being one of the "100 Most influential Women “ in Atlanta, to people asking me if I moved. It’s meant taking positions where every fabric of your being is tested, to falling off the “A” invite list.

The totality of why this has stayed with me up until this writing is finally starting to take shape and will be a testimony of running the race to the end. It explains the process of the brokenness I've experienced as I’m being refined for the greater work that is to come. Everyone's road is going to be different and how soon you'll get there is based on your openness to be made over. It will require you to take a look at the "man in the mirror."

I've had essentially five careers in my lifetime. Yet, the call to speak into the lives of women all over the world comes at a tremendous cost. Most importantly, it has required me to surrender control to my higher power and be led by the spirit.

This has been a nine year process and I know I'm close to coming out and walking on a new stage with a new name. I'm very close to coming out of hiding (process) and I can't wait to see what and who is waiting for me.