Passing Over Opportunities Repeadly=POOR

Day 316: “He who refuses to embrace a unique opportunity loses the prize as surely as if he had failed’’- James Chance. I literally sat at the computer for over 7 hours today as I was willed and determined to get a proposal into my client. While my eyes burned, back hurt and I had not eaten all day the finished product was wonderful.

The Mac Book Pro came today and I was too swamped to spend time getting to now it. I did fire it up toward the end of the day just to take a peak. I am so supper happy to on the cutting edge of technology and I have orientation tomorrow and class. Tonight I hosted my first Webinar and I think I did a really good job and surprised myself. I was a little disappointed in the response from the guest I had on the phone.

The question was asked does it make sense to get paid on things you are doing anyway? Answer, Yes. Question, is there anyplace you see yourself losing in this business? Answer, No.

Then why do we then want to go and do more research? I asked one of my guest if she researched Walmart before she went shopping with them. She actually said, Yes. I continue to be in awe of how we as a people- Black folks repeatedly pass over opportunities. For sure, the business I'm in is not for everyone. It's not even that it's just, it's more our mindset is so very interesting...it makes you go ummm.

Can"t get stuck in traffic got to keep it moving. Note to self-all the doors are open and everyone can't go through the doors I'm going through- they don't fit.

Go Where You're Celebrated Not Tolerated

Day 317: “Dear to us are those who love us. . . but dearer are those who reject us unworthy, for they add another life; they build a heaven before us whereof we had not dreamed, and thereby supply to us new powers out of the recesses of the spirit.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson. I received a call asking, if I was going to be able to keep my commitment to work on a project in the ministry. It got me thinking about what was really in my heart as this subject had been on my mind for a few weeks.

When I decided to submit my gifts to the ministry I knew from working in my church where my gifts would best support the kingdom. However, I was willing to work wherever there was the greatest need. Of course, it would be doing something in marketing but not in the area in which I wanted to volunteer. It was suggested that I could work in another area for a while and then prove myself.

I actually agreed to it knowing all the time that the idea that I needed to prove myself to man was not sitting well in my spirit. I even tired to convince myself that the role I was asked to participate in worked for me because I was interacting with people. All of my life I’ve had to deal with rejection and the result of it has been me becoming an enabler and taking on other people’s stuff.

My Mac arrives tomorrow and that means graduate school starts for me. I’m working on several client projects and building my ZamZuu business. The thought of having to prove that I’m worthy to lend my gifts to the ministry doesn’t seem to be in right alignment. I want to be where I am celebrated and not tolerated. Even thought I know in my heart this is not the intention of the leadership it’s still a reality. I know the ministry God had placed inside of me is outside of the four walls of the church and in the marketplace. In no way am I offended but I do need to keep it moving and not get stuck in the politics of it all.

Tonight, I witnessed another business partner in ZamZuu get a $5,000 check and her testimony of getting into the business to save families was moving. This is what ministry in the marketplace looks like for me and my sphere of influence is in the business arena. We had Locker Room talk with our millionaire mentor Donald Bradley and I could not pay for the coaching and pouring out he did tonight.

He came up to me and told me how influential my circle was and that he wanted me to get him in the room with them. Here is a millionaire extending himself to be accessible to help me build my business and grow my genealogy. The first words I remember hearing spoken when I joined this business was “documentation beats conversation.” While I have not become as documented as I will be in ZamZuu, he recognizes who I am and I don’t have to prove myself.

Note to self- Find Your Center- magnetize to yourself all those things that are in alignment with your inner being.

Swatting At Gnat’s

Day 318: “An important project was begun, a bishop quoted an ancient sage as saying, "If our thoughts and hopes are elsewhere, it is impossible for us to set our faces steadily toward the work required of us."—Anonymous. It’s very late and the day started and ended with major distractions designed to throw my day into utter crazy.

I woke up early excited about the goals and objectives I had set for myself. It was literally after 9:00 before my T-Mobile network came back. Not only did I have no phone service but no Internet as well. I had just told my cable provider Comcast on Friday, that I could not think of a reason in the world why I would need a land line.

Three hours into my day and the house is awake and immediately starts moving into full throttle. My daughter has a very hard time getting that I work from home. This is her second week off from school for spring break and I’m paying for her to take a vacation this week. Did I mention that Snowball the dog who is about ten years old and needy keeps walking back and forth at my office door for attention.,..ahhh. I’m so tempted to leave him in Piedmont Park on his next walk…just kidding PETA.

Oh yes, school started today but my Mac won’t get shipped until tomorrow and arrive on Wednesday and I’m actually happy about it. I can’t imagine how I could have added school into this day. I started out turning down my plate to fast and ended up at Starbucks’s for a Latte.

I kept trying to take back my day and it was simply hit and miss and felt like I was swatting at gnats. I did get a small amount of business done today and moved some of my task to complete. The highlight of my day came while speaking with my sister Lawana who lives in Chicago.

She made me laugh to tears as she explained how when she read yesterday’s blog she thought it was a continuation of the day before about love running deep. Seems my post about my college sweetheart left her wanting to know more about us. I told her she would have to wait for the book.

At the end of the day I am a very blessed woman. With all the distraction with my family I could not imagine life without them. Tomorrow comes with new mercies and the hope of a day filled with meeting expectations and moving closer to walking out my destiny.

Love is Everything It's Cracked Up To Be

Day 319: “Love is everything it’s cracked up to be. That’s why people are so contemptuous about it. It’s worth fighting for, being brave for, dying for, living for, and risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more. Yet, we have this truth that God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have everlasting life. There is no greater love than this for He first loved us.
I have been operating on two hours of sleep and worried I would fall asleep at 7:00 am service. Thank God the message brought forth by Pastor Gary Oliver out of Texas was a Karos word. There was such a great air of expectation this Palm Sunday from the congregation. We celebrated by bringing our Tabernacle offering to the altar.

The Meaning of Palm Sunday
Palm Sunday commemorates the triumphal entry of Jesus into Jerusalem to celebrate the Passover. The gospels record the arrival of Jesus riding into the city on a donkey, while the crowds spread their cloaks and palm branches on the street and shouted "Hosanna to the Son of David" and "Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord" to honor him as their long-awaited Messiah and King.

The significance of Jesus riding a donkey and having his way paved with palm branches is a fulfillment of a prophecy spoken by the prophet Zechariah (Zechariah 9:9). In biblical times, the regional custom called for kings and nobles arriving in procession to ride on the back of a donkey. The donkey (or domesticated ass) was a symbol of peace; those who rode upon them proclaimed peaceful intentions. The laying of palm branches indicated that the king or dignitary was arriving in victory or triumph.

After church I drove an hour to Carrolton, Georgia for my first ZamZuu private business reception for Sylvester and Vickie O’Neal, Even though they’re not on my team they asked me to present for them and it was my pleasure to do so. If you sow much you will reap much, sow a little and reap a little. Driving back in the rain, I decided to treat myself to dinner and sit down to a classic white table cloth environment.

My thoughts are jumbling as I’m really past exhausted so I’m signing off .. knowing that I am loved and have been bought with a price. Goodnight!

Love Runs Deep

Day 321: “I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out.” -Elizabeth Barrett Browning. I spoke with my college sweetheart and first love for a couple of hours today. It makes me feel warm and fuzzy to think we are still sweethearts after almost 30 years.

I use to tell people if I never find love again I know that I have been loved by a wonderful and gentle man who was my best friend. We talk a couple of times a year and it’s always as if we had not spoken in a few days. We shared many real life challenges which bonded us with life long memories. I enjoy the easiness of our conversations.

The amazing relationship between me and his mother has spanned the past 30 year's as well. She once told me I was always going to be her daughter and that my children were suppose to be her grandchildren. Those are the kind of words that take your breath away and make you want to hug yourself.

My son calls me First Lady and today I realize more than ever he is truly a mama’s boy. As my daughter is a daddy’s girl. As we talked about his future and what direction he was shifting to over lunch, I had flashbacks of the first time I held him. He really is a good looking young man and I can’t wait till he settles down with the young woman who will bear my grand children. I really do want lots of them and so this year I plan to move into a larger home in preparation for them….my plans.

Driving back from hanging out with my son I was listening to the best music on satellite radio. Since I was feeling very melancholy I turned on Anita Baker “Angel” which absolutely took me on a stroll down memory lane. To a much simpler time when all I had to worry about was getting good grades in college.

I must admit that most of the time I am deeply focused on business and helping others. Like most women I tend to forget about me. And after all this blog for the most part is about me falling in love with me.

Today, I remembered that I am loved...thanks to all of you who love me and please know that I love you more.

Faith To Keep It Moving

Day 322: “Flatter me, and I may not believe you. Criticize me, and I may not like you. Ignore me, and I may not forgive you. Encourage me, and I will not forget you.”- William A. Ward. I have found that when a person feels encouraged, she can face the impossible and overcome incredible adversity. Few things help a person the way encouragement does.

You know, difficulties seldom defeat people; lack of faith in themselves usually does. Today was a day where you just had to believe in your self. Distractions tried to ware me down on every turn and I mean every turn. My daughter is on spring break from college and since she and my son are seven year’s apart she acts like an only child. She’s planning her next week trip to Florida and believes because she’s off and has an agenda that needs to be funded I should be accessible.

Because I currently have a home office my friend’s and family call during the day to inquire “what you doing.” Today’s hair appointment for a color rinse and cut took 4- count them 4 -hours. I took it all in stride and tired to get as much accomplished as I could as I waited. At the end of the day, my hair cut is fabulous and I’m very happy about it.

I had the best Jamaican food in Atlanta today and it was a major highlight for me. I didn’t make any money today nor was I able to position myself to make profit. I kept the majority of my commitment for the week and feel really blessed for the favor and access.

One of my sister’s is in crisis with her teenager but is unable to step outside of her self to get down to the core of the problem. Even though she comes to me I believe she thinks I think I know it all. I tried to tell her she has the benefit of my wisdom but I'm thinking just be a listener. I am going to go into spiritual warfare for both of them but mostly my niece. I have empathy for them both and only want to see them happy and living their best life.

Tonight I’m reminded of the vision of our church… Love Like Him, Live Like Him, Lead Like Him.

Why We Celebrate Passover?

Day 323: "In Exodus 12:3-14 we read, “The blood shall be a sign for you on the houses where you live; and when I see the blood I will pass over you, and no plague will befall you when I strike the land of Egypt... This day will be a memorial to you, and you shall celebrate it as a feast to the Lord. Throughout your generations you are to celebrate it as a permanent ordinance.” Tonight, I began a Passover celebration with many Christians around the world. I'm asking you my family and community of reader's to shift with me for a better understanding of why I chose to go in this direction. Understanding this one major celebration is so important I wanted to share the knowledge I've gained with you.

As we approach the celebration of PASSOVER we must remember that Passover is a celebration designed by God! This Feast and Event was given to increase our faith and prepare us to enter in the fullness of His blessing! Passover was commanded by God for the Jews in the Old Testament to teach them the importance of redemption by the blood. But it was also observed by Christians in the New Testament to remember and understand God’s redeeming work! The Bible tells us it is to be a permanent ordinance… a celebration for all time! God is restoring Passover. Below is exceprts from teachings by Chuck Pierce on the real reason we celebrate Passover.

Passover is very important to God! But the enemy HATES Passover! The enemy has worked diligently to steal Passover away! The good news is: God is restoring Passover. But it is a battle! The battle for Passover is the battle for the blood. Satan wants to give us a bloodless religion, because a bloodless religion has no power! The power is in the blood!

There’s always a battle for PASSOVER. We see it in church history!
In the 4th century, when the emperor Constantine tried to merge Christianity and paganism, it sounded like a good deal to many! He legalized Christianity! You could go to church without having to fear being thrown to the lions!

And Constantine didn’t mind Christians having a celebration of Jesus’ resurrection… But he did have an issue with PASSOVER! He demanded that Christians not celebrate Jesus’ resurrection at the time of Passover! At the Council of Nicea (A.D. 325), he declared, “This irregularity [observing Passover] must be corrected!”
At the council of Nicea, Constantine outlawed Passover and directed that Christ’s death and resurrection be celebrated on “the Sunday following the first full moon after the vernal equinox,” …a time associated with the spring festival of the pagan fertility goddess Ishtar… also known as Eastre! (That’s why in the church today we celebrate the resurrection at Easter instead of Passover!) Constantine’s goal was to remove Jesus from the context of Passover!

The Battle Continues!
Many in the church resisted Constantine’s edicts, so for many centuries after Constantine, the battle for Passover continued! In the sixth century, for example, Emperor Justinian sent the Roman armies throughout the empire to enforce the prohibition on Passover! In his attempt to wipe out the “heresy” of Passover, thousands of men, women and children were brutally murdered! Entire cities were massacred for refusing to stop celebrating Passover! (The battle for Passover has had many casualties!) Pressured by the government, the Roman church joined in the attempts to stamp out Passover.


Well, it’s official all my paperwork has been approved and I will start graduate school Monday, March 29th right after I enjoy my Seder meal for Passover. As we restore Passover the power returns to the body. I’m very passionate about searching out the secret things of God’s word. I hope this teaching blesses you way more than it has me.